Boiling it all down waiting for the frothy truth to rise above the heated bubbles showing the bests honest sincerity
Instead the heated turds polish themselves in the days boil
Shit does not always roll down the cliche downhill
Evil defecation floats as strong as the creams best submerged in the fabrics of best intention
Turning even the best people into full shining examples of the polished shithead roaming society as grand examples of how the full of shit get further than the foam of the top
We are all full of fantastic shit
And some shittier than the rest
Shine on you crazy shitheadd
The words I have, the stories that need telling
Weekends in the abyss picking of kitchy baubles to prove the trips are real fighting back tears under the storm clouds and crows
I lug around me most days since I found out the hopeless, the outcasts, and the downtrodden
Everyone relates to the songs
Poetry written from a gutter
They get loved for the relation to tune
When we get right to it
They can only relate in abstract senses begging to live that life
Just when faced with it
It’s a refusal to acknowledge or even see
These are true stories
From the invisible
Her shadowy delicate hair curls around her made up face of a porcelian doll
belonging to no one
i am lucky the warm and fuzzy moment is all mine,time is hers to give
time is hers to take where ever she pleases
in sickness and awful health she will stroll by with another giving them her warmest pleasure
no dancing tonight lad just deep dark struggle recalled from before she was even thought
we will just blame her for the big hole in the chest because that’s what we do until we win her time again
she comes back like clockwork
Another Rose’s Name
Light the smoke over the even colder by now coffee
pondering the prophet Jesus and all the wonderful things he said
were meaningful for a carpenter,
love thy neighbor and give unto the meek
(but by the next match
we all know in the end he was just profit.)
People writing songs that no one gave a shit about
no one dared echo the sound of car adverts
We don’t belong in the gnarled grip of bad melodies
from John Hugh’s scripted teenage opera,
the muscle in the chest lives further –
Even as it is dragged out daily to crawl
a gutter of boiled up memories
whilst remembering your life’s valued
by a mobile list of other people
Pour another and laugh at a napalm heart
that is not buying it.
I said pour another, when the napalm clings.
Effluence flows from Shit Water Creek,
bite off your nose to spite the cheek,
can’t smell, can’t speak –
they all made choices, even me.
Who lives afraid and doesn’t even know
the prison bars are their skull,
Tell me again
the crimes of us all,
tell me again
I don’t understand, because
the story at the end of it all.
The napalm clings to palm hearts that fall,
and so what? We’re burning our dreams
with diesel engines,
while little boys die on distant oceans.
the constant purring child’s diesel hope engine untainted by told limited boundaries
it if was never taught how a barbed wire world sadly worked
the sky could be green as she flew to on swan as oppose the little train who not
fires never go out they are only fitted for the updating status quo
laugh at the glowing glass,, laugh at love and this old love that is never really old
the dark that comes even with a flammable heartbeat
the corner next to the jukebox that only plays Nick Cave Murder Ballads
prime real estate for when she walks in because she owns the poorly lit joint
change the world or stay in bed but the alarm goes off at 6am
they still play those early morning pencil shows
napalm hearts know where to find without them without turning on a television
they only play with constant buffering of existential crisis
They are there
screaming to share
Show details
I’ve died a thousand times and all my last thoughts were of her
She lands her pint down and asks the famous question, “But why is everything worded so vague and ugly also how much is true? “I put my awkward head down and lacked any remote sort of response,fidgeting by now I sipped my drink looking away. I had to smirk buying time for an answer,buying another round as she stared intently through me. I had no answer.
There was no convincing her this is me daily inside my skull seeing what others refuse to notice with their goggles. I couldn’t escape the question nor can I escape myself in this moment.
“So what is it then genius”? She asked again
I threw money on the stick, put on my parka and politely told her,”Keep reading it.. if I decide to stay writing, maybe you’ll fall in there somewhere if not then life’s a circle innit”?
Sister I’m not a poet I told her
I’m a liar and emotional thief
a vagabond rat prince
pint skuller of the voiceless
saying absolutely nothing
to no one
Black shoes
Boundaries on an emotional content are two parts nitroglycerin and 10 parts rage
hiding
the fuse from yourself and others so not to spark the start of ticking clocked
Enola Gay destruction in the wake of
nearby humanities lunch dates and conference calls about the next socially coerced life
Secret timers
Secret plastic detonators
Wrapped in worlds gazes of could have beens
and quick winks of the eye
Black shoes
Boundaries on emotional content are two parts nitroglycerin and 10 parts rage
hiding
the fuse from yourself and others so not to spark the start of ticking clocked
Enola Gay destruction in nearby humanities lunch dates and conference calls about the next socially coerced life
Secret timers
Secret plastic detonators
Wrapped in a gaze of could have beens
Not in the movies
I come from an immigrant settled neighborhood. When Tammany hall and the NYC socialites were bored of the beach..the poor,the servants,the hiding ,and sick quickly established neighborhoods with their own people. The Irish settled with Spanish next door to Italians from Sicily. The slang paddy wagon could have easily been forged in these neighborhood streets.
Policeman and firemen became the norm along with hustlers,thieves,IRA, and crooks all in the same households.
It’s a story, it’s all true, and I’ve lived it everywhere this land was made for you and me
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